I'll Eventually Find Myself

I feel as though I am falling down a very dark and deep pith. At time's I'd often feel the wall's of that dark and deep pith that I am falling down in narrow down to just an inch from me. Is it a tight squeeze? Yes it is at times. But what has become of my fairytale story? The prelude looked so bright and it seemed to have been developing into another 'happy ever after', but the sequel was just horrid. I didn't get what I aspired. Maybe its a good thing or maybe its not? Maybe my story is written in such manner or maybe it isn't? But nonetheless I still have to move on. I'm not sure if I feel myself anymore as I find myself to be changing into a different individual. I'm afraid I'd end up becoming a very straight-to-the point kind of person which I so dearly despise of becoming. At times hate enraptures my heart and tends to get the better of me. I try to fight back but sometimes, it turns out to be very unproductive. The only remedy is probably in my opinion; watching a hard-hitting comedy show. Sometimes it helps; Yes! But in rare occasions it seldom doesn't. So what will become of me now? I bet the song entitled 'Hey Sarah Sarah' is by far the best way to describe the current situation that I am in now. But a male version of it, not the female version.

Anyway, I'd really wish that I'll be able to find peace with myself for I can bear this pain no longer. Tears rolled down my cheeks like candle wax every time I look at my reflection on the mirrors surface. What has happened to that boy who was bursting with unprecedented potential? Where is he? The only reasonable thing that he should do is come out from hiding. That boy has been hiding from the world long enough to not go unnoticed. I really feel like a moron. But what can I do to rekindle that burning desire to progress back into my heart? The answer to that question will never be found. Its only in times of joy that God has bestowed upon us will you then ponder on the past and realize that you've done it. With the aid of He Who Is The All Wise and The Dispeller Of Every Afflictions, will you then be able to achieve what your heart solemnly desires.